Thoughts Of A Twenty Something Year Old
Aspiring writer. Born storyteller.
“I like the stars. It is the illusion of permanence, I think. They’re always flaring up and caving in and going out. But from here, I can pretend – I can pretend things last. I can pretend that lives last longer than moments. Gods come, and gods go. Mortals flicker and flash and fade. Worlds don’t last, and stars and galaxies are transient, fleeting things that twinkle like fireflies and vanish into cold and dust. But I can pretend…”
It’s been over a year and a half since the last time we held hands. It’s not even the handholding that I miss most though. It’s not the interrupted conversation kisses, the lovemaking, or even the Thanksgivings up in Oregon with your family. It’s the fact that I lost my best friend. That’s not me idealizing anything – that’s just the truth.
I pulled out all of my old pictures this morning. Printed, not digital. Remember when we used to do that? Pick up our photos from Walgreens or Long’s or Costco. Remember the tangible? The things we could feel with both our hands and our hearts. I think I am addicted to nostalgia. So I look, knowing even the good times will hurt, too.
Fallen leaves remind me of November in Portland. They are green now; they were red then. Angels danced in rainstorms, and lovemaking struck lightning. They stirred something in me, something familiar. Something kind of like hope. Something kind of like home.
This past year, I signed with Creative Genius Publishing to work on releasing my first book. I spent the summer editing, developing a website, and rereading my manuscript countless times, so much so that the words took on a whole new meaning for me. I am thrilled and ever so appreciative of all of the support I have been given, from family, friends, and this community here on WordPress. Words will never be enough to express how grateful I am. I am also incredibly excited to announce that Phoenix Rising: Onward and Upward will be available in bookstores, through Amazon, and through my website come December 1, 2015.
Thoughts Of A Twenty Something Year Old 